Chronicles of Moi...and sometimes of others too...

Moving to another shack....

2010-03-19T23:39:00.004+08:00

I have moved. Again. I hope this will be my final move, at least until I can have my .com add :-)

hop here peeps!!

Chocolate with a crooked C...

2009-11-28T18:22:00.005+08:00

I was having my fondue with a friend last week at the curve when suddenly a squeaky voice of a really young boy caught our attention.

He was saying this out loud to his mommy.

With 1 finger pointing to the signage - Mommy, it's chocolate right but the C is the other way round...terbalik la mommy...why...why....

Hahahaa.... cute... cute... and that boy is not even 5 i tell ya...

kids says the darnedest thing..don't they...

Salam Eid Adha

2009-11-26T19:57:00.003+08:00

Salam Eid Adha to all Muslim sisters and brothers wherever you are.

Coincidentally, it's Thanksgiving weekend too. Happy Thanksgiving to all and have a great weekend.

As for me, it's going to be a quiet Eid. Parents will be joining my brother and his family to Melaka for a weekend at A-Famosa. I have to work on Saturday. I would like to say it's unfortunate that I could not make it but I would be lying with a not so straight face.... I'm actually going to take this opportunity to chill at home on Friday. I need this break... Life at work has been a whirlwind and my other life ain't doing great either.

Ouh...btw, my eldest sister whom supposedly should be the wiser one among all of us, did her Eid Adha routine, this is the 2nd time and it falls everytime during Eid Adha - ran away from home. Funny ehh..... as you get older, you are suppose to get wiser. In this case, I'm afraid not.

My brother and I just could not be bothered. Only one thing that my brother mentioned - all these years of shit we gave our mommy, not one time she ditched us. And just because our parents are getting old and frail and sometimes yes I must say demanding, we just ditched them??

Allah knows best. I just hope my sister knows that world does just revolve around her hardships. There are others out there who's having it in a larger scale. What we have is peanut...

Spa Retreat - Tempat Senang, Batam

2009-11-04T16:22:00.008+08:00

4 of us went for a spa retreat. I make it clear that for this trip to Singapore, I want to do this Batam thingy.... And boy I have no regrets....apart from the hiccups on the cash/credit card issue.

The whole thing cost each one of us SGD241 or RM600...which is for me reaaaalllyyy cheap as this covers...are you ready??

1. A 1 night stay
2. Pick up/Transfer @ Sekupang.
3. Seafood Dinner
4. Breakfast
5. 3 hours Spa treatment

Not bad ehhh...However I would recommend a 2 nights stay, so the trip won't be a wannabe "amazing race" trip. You'll have ample time to roam around Nagoya Hill and Batam Centre. I did my cream bath and pedicure at wannabe Salon Christopher, a wannabe Johnny Andrean which cost me only RM30!!! But I must say JA beat their service and cream bath by miles. I did these on my arrival day @ Nagoya Hill and on departure day, I was at Batam Centre and I saw JA... drats... maybe next time.

We did not arrive as schedule due to the misunderstanding on whether or not we can use credit cards since the 2 Malaysian girls were short of cash and RHB Singapore apparently is not link at all with RHB Malaysia. We almost gave up...almost...but dear Yani, the youngest and the sober ones among us decided that we should give Tempat Senang a call again to reconfirm usage of CC. And voilaaaa....what do you know??? They accept it... If only we knew this from the very beginning.... it would save us running around central SG for stupid RHB and Maybank. And to add on, my card was retained.

We missed the 8.30 boat and only manage to get the 12.10 boat. Batam time is an hour behind Singapore. Bustamin from TS picked us up at Sekupang terminal and brought us to TS.L It was a bumpy ride, red earth road kinda thing...

We arrived, checked-in, rested for a while before making our way to Nagoya Hill - apparently the biggest shopping mall in Batam. The journey was about 40minutes and for 3 hours the personal cab cost us Rph150,000. We had our lunch and went separate ways to do our cream bath, menis and pedis. Both Emy and Yani preferred Marthaa Tilaar while I who had bad experience with Indonesian traditional products decided to stick with the JA wannabe salon.

Emy's meni and pedi took longer than expected...we promised the driver to pick us up at 5pm which became 7pm. Additional hour is charged @ SGD7.

To cut the story short, we had fun... it was worth the money....big dinner, lovely breakfast, we went for a short swim etc...etc...

Verdict - A must go again...

Karaoke jam session...

2009-10-26T12:27:00.005+08:00

It was one helluva nite... All of us had fun. Some of us have not seen each other since we left college..that was like 14 years ago!!

Thanks to Boy and Ija who made it all the way from Kuala...Long live Kuala...hahahaha

Also to super senior yg tetap hot - Kak Long Hawa...steady la sis... and not forgetting Izudin, the super junior.

Mek yang semakin hot...hahahaha....Julie yg tetap maintain.. Razal yg mengikut kata Kak Long semakin hensem dan tak poyo rambut panjang macam dulu.... Qul yang tetap maintain mat smart.. Bai yang tetap maintain player...hahahaha

Dodie and I truly enjoyed this session, we have been doing things together for donkey years that seeing new faces gives a new breath of fresh air...kan di???

It was good to see old buddies, rekindle old memories...old jokes.. new jokes...see how things are in our current life...

And it all started @ Intai-Intai Buka Puasa session, thanks to Hapiz who made Intai-Intai session came true and to Bad for hosting the dinner.... Guess the Ramadhan brings the best of every good things..and not forgetting of course FACEBOOK that has linked all of us...

May this friendship last forever - BERSAMA SELAMANYA -

xoxo
mzz
ITTAR Batch 93-95

Papadom

2009-10-19T15:23:00.002+08:00

After a month break from one of my favourite past-time = watching movies...I went to watch the much talked about Papadom.

Verdict - Awesome... some scenes are bit slow.....most importantly I did not fall asleep, which is a good thing. Coz the last AS movie, I slept halfway through it..it was a disappointment..Buli Balik i think...

This time round I was not alone...I was flanked by 2 guys... Jude and Jack. Best gak tengok wayang ngan friends nie.. I have been watching movies alone for donkey times that having friends around to laugh with, felt good. Jack however felt asleep half way through..or to be precise, almost right after his sister's song was on air. Too happy during happy hour I guess... or malay film just don't do it for him..hehehhe. Jude on the other hand watched all the way through.

After Papadom, it was the usual mamak, drop both of em' at sentral...ntah aper nak buat kat sentral pukul 4 pagi tuh pun, I don't know... 2nd round of happy hour @ centro??? hahahaha...
as for me...I could not wait to hit the sack. I'm due up in 3 hours.....sighhh...

But I enjoyed the night...

The usual weekend garden chat

2009-10-19T10:46:00.004+08:00

After almost half a day of running from one side of KL to another fulfilling the invitations for open houses and Diwali, I ended up at MPC upper deck for Saturday night EPL matches. One of the reason was that my friend house does not have the sports channel and I reckon I won't make it home on time for the match.

Past midnight, I decided I should just head straight to mommy's place. If I don't do this sleep over, this will be the 3rd weekend and I don't want to get mommy upset. Susah tau jadi single pun, when you already live outside, they still expect you to come over the weekend...

What did I do on Sunday?? I slept most of the morning till afternoon....one of the best sleep ever..woken up by the sound of Qistina crying her lungs out downstairs...serious gila punya kuat!! after what seems like ages..I decided this cannot do. I went downstairs and saw Qish mommy sitting on the bed and little girl was crying in the bathroom. And that girl, she can cry....

Ayu said, leave her there...she wants to play with water and I would not let her... After some intervention from me and the maid, things was sorted out. Pity my sister..I seriously do...taking care of 2 small kids without the husband, it's not easy. Qish is daddy's girl, nasib MJ is a good boy..hardly give his mommy any problem. Good that Megat is coming back soon. It's a sacrifice that both Megat and my sister did, so she can forego autumm in Paris to take care of mommy while she was bedridden couple of weeks back.

There goes my sleep. Decided to roam around the house and just do nothing... Terpaksa layan Disney Channel almost the whole day...munch some kerepek and do nothing...lay down in the room... skejab lay down pulak kat hall... then read the newspaper...then do facebooking on ipod, the chill in mommy's room and watched bawang putih bawang merah which eventually watched me instead....

Come petang, mom said she wants to sit in the garden and ask me to accompany her...boleh laaa... I can chill with my mom anytime...she's my rock...she's my pillar of strength... and that's why anything she says will have great implication to my life. And sometimes she says something that hurts, she's human after all... But I love her to bits... I say I love you all the time.....sometimes people ask me...ehh..boleh yer kau cakap ngan mak kau I love you??? why ever not??? I pity those fools...when I have kids, I have this thing in mind about being expressive with your emotions and I sure hell do will be very expressive with my otherhalf...hahahaha.....kesian whoever that will be...he have to endure this...

Soon, my sis in law and Ayu joined us. Mom...said...(which I sort dah agak where it will go)...tengah kira duit nie.....someone ask for what, for Intan nak kawin?? See?? didn't I say so...my family is sooooo predictable...hehehehe

And my mom dengan confidentnya jawab...ehhh...that one already put aside...cakap jer, anytime...give me two days...and I said...wow...really??? and she said...of course...each of my kids have their share, which obviously my share is not being use yet.

Then I said...ok..nanti Intan punyer buat one timer jer bleh tak? combine..leceh laaa..nak buat 2 kali.....blehh..bleh...no problem... pastuh buat kat Saloma bleh tak mie?? bleh...blehh.... then my sister interuppted, buat aper buat kat situ...rumah besar2 buat kat luar plak...

Then the big question came... so you got anyone in mind. I said no one has ask for my hands yet...hehehehe... then my mom said...always..always put my hope this high and then nothing...hehehehe.... how old are you? 34 kan?? ok..mommy bagi lagi 1 tahun..35 u must get married ok... anggukkan saja laaa....heheheh

alaaa...mommy...I'm just going with the flow.... hehehehe...

I love you mom!!! muaahhhhh

Friends...

2009-10-12T12:58:00.002+08:00

You know how good old friends can make your day breezy...above are some of the good old friends...

Had a great time....Got me stuck in a moment.... ;)

just get back up....

2009-10-02T12:24:00.002+08:00

sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down...
just get back up
when it knocks you down...

when am I getting back up??

Sick...

2009-09-30T16:07:00.005+08:00

I wish I can just zapped into thin air and be in my bedroom now...

I wish I'm in my bed now...

I wish for this pain to go away..

I wish someone can wake me up for tonight's match......that is if I can get up...

I hope by 2.45am, it will go away...

Hahahahaaaa...sicko isn't it?? I'm in pain and I wish I can be up for the match...

Yeah...this is the life of a single hood....

Happy Eid 2009

2009-09-28T21:37:00.003+08:00

Happy Eid Mubarak to all....

4 years ago on this year 1st Syawal which falls on the 20th September, I lost one family member. He went away without any notice whatsoever. May Allah s.w.t rest his soul among the pious in the highest Jannah....ameen...

Perhaps that's the reason why I did not have that "feel" for Raya....

Anyway, I'm back to work. It's really a horrible Monday :( I'm coughing really badly... sigh..this is a never ending disease.... My eyes feels hot...feels like throwing up anytime soon...

This is the time where I tell myself... now it would be nice to have that person I can call my otherhalf...boleh la..tolong picit2 kan kepala ker....make me a mug of hot chocolate..or just be here to hear me whine....

Meme: Save Yvonne's Sight

2009-09-18T01:32:00.002+08:00

Save Yvonne's sight - I saw this entry in Kak Teh's blog It's a small little thing I can do to spread the words around...

More about Yvonne's complication here

~Yvonne has lost her hearing and now she faces losing her sight too. She is scheduled for an operation between 1 and 4 December 2009. But of course she has to raise the funds by herself. The cost of surgery is USD44,000 or RM154,770, and the cost of staying in hospital for two weeks is USD915 or RM3219.

She has raised about RM10,000 of this and is hoping to raise the rest by republishing her book I'm Not Sick; I'm Just a Bit Unwell in English and Chinese. The books are now available in Malaysian bookshops and from her web site store. She is also selling T-shirts at bazaars and via her web site store. You can read about her surgery and donate to her fund here.~

Yvonne Foong is in danger of losing her eyesight thanks to neurofibromatosis (NF). Please find out how you can help her by visiting her blog at http://www.yvonnefoong.com.

You can also help by sending on this meme. If you do, please follow these meme rules:

1. Create a blog entry titled "Meme: Save Yvonne's Sight"
2. List three things you love to see. Add in the picture of Yvonne's book cover. The URL is http://www.yvonnefoong.com/images/banner/my-story.jpg
3. End with the line, "Yvonne Foong is in danger of losing her eyesight thanks to neurofibromatosis (NF). Please find out how you can help her by visiting her blog at http://www.yvonnefoong.com.
4. Tag 5 blog friends. Be sure to copy the rules, OK?
5. If you have a Facebook account, please check out Ellen's new invention, a "feme" pronounced FEEM, a meme designed for Facebook here. And if you want to blog about NF, that would be great too!

Three things I love to see :

1. The sea from a balcony
2. Anything interesting on the TV
3. People I love and care for

Bloggers I'm tagging are:

Kak Elle
OrdinarySuperhero
Pruplelillies
ElisaTaufik
OneBreastBouncing

In fact if anyone else out there would like to meme or feme this - please feel free.
LET'S DO WHATEVER WE CAN TO HELP YVONNE.

Screwed....

2009-09-17T12:48:00.003+08:00

why am I depressed?

Seriously, I have no farking idea!!!

Maybe it's one of those days where hormones juggle with everything that tends to be working on normal mode :(

Or It could be that I'm trying to complete my presentation for 2010 Budget or the fact that I have not finish my August P&L. Damn!!! I'm way behind schedule....

I am so looking forward for that break in SG. It might just be down south, still, it's away from all this....

Syawal mode..............Bzzzzz.... Damn...freaking button is out...I'm screwed...Now where is that god damn engineering!!!! Fix the button!!!

Feeling under the weather

2009-09-16T20:57:00.003+08:00

The hazy weather and the hotel renovation does not blend well with health.

I was being very careful not to get myself admitted again due to the chronic cough I had. Little that I realized the inhaler given was for a purpose.

After munching "rempeyek" while driving to my buka puasa destination, that night I had my "semput" attack. I could not sleep, tossing and turning the whole night and was alone. I tried calling my mom but to no avail. Wish I could call someone....

I took a day leave and rested the whole of Tuesday. Wasted 1 day of puasa to eat my medications and of course puffed on the inhaler twice. I felt much better by noon, and decided to watch some dvd's. I decided to watch Fringe Season 1. Not bad...

For that good rest on Tuesday, I had the chance to get up at 3am and watch Man U match against BES in Turkey.

The BES fans was very impressive. But Old Scholes shut em' up at the 76th minute. It was a good one from Scholes, considering just few days back he was given a RED card by that skoopid ref!!

Ok folks, it's 3 days to Shawal and I don't really have that Shawal mode yet....hmmm...

Get what you've been given..

2009-09-14T13:30:00.002+08:00

is not asking much in her yet to be found partner...just want someone to listen to the crap things I have to say and my crapping mood swings

This is what's on my twitter and fb.....

I had supper with an old friend. An old friend that I can speak my inner thoughts on relationships etc....

In the middle of our conversations, that statement popped up, I end it ... is it so difficult dude??

I suppose, it's a question that has no direct answer, Could be easy for some, could be difficult for others and unfortunately I fall into the latter category...sigh....

Well, we can't possibly have all our wishes come true right? If they do, how dull life will be...

Another interesting story came up from my friend last night. It's about a friend of her husband, who visited them quite sometime ago.While watching my friend and her husband talking, he mumbled about how when we were younger our choices in our spouse was so rigid.

His, was quite a list and one of it is pretty. I guess pretty is a very subjective adjectives.. It can be pretty to his eyes, or pretty like is an envy to other dudes or could be both.

After 14years of marriage, all this friend could say was, I can only speak to my wife about the kids.

How our choices in finding spouses when it comes to look, sizes, level of education, family background and many other facts plays an important role in finding our otherhalfs.

As someone commented to me once...

Mas, you will get it like how the rest of us got it, get what you've been given...

Sarah Bokker

2009-07-30T20:10:00.001+08:00

Beauty and the East

By Sara Bokker

Picture © Microsoft.com

I grew up near a small town in South Dakota. The only religions I was exposed to were various denominations of Christianity. My family and I occasionally attended a Lutheran church, encouraged by my mother, and I was eventually confirmed Lutheran. I did believe in God, but did not believe in all that "church stuff": singing, worshiping pictures of crosses and Jesus, and eating "the body and blood of Christ." It just did not make any sense to me.

For as long as I can remember, something was always missing. There was this hole in my heart, this great sadness and dark loneliness penetrating every cell of my body, mind, and soul. Nothing could fill that hole, and the pain would not go away. I turned to alcohol at a very early age to numb that deep, agonizing pain, but it was only temporary, and it always made me feel even worse after the numbness wore off.

My distance from my family and everyone else around me only increased as I grew older. I had so much disgust and hatred for myself, which caused me to be absolutely horrible to my parents. All I remember wanting was to escape — escape where I was and who I was. However, I found that no matter how hard I tried, I could not escape who I was. Therefore, I was determined to do what I could to escape where I was before I literally destroyed myself.

I became a slave to my looks. I was consumed by it all.

I dropped out of college and left South Dakota for Florida by myself when I was 19. Able to make a fresh start in an exciting new environment, I found a bit of happiness for a brief period of time. But it was only superficial. That pain and sadness, that hole in my heart, was still there.

I spent many years searching for something to heal myself. I turned to psychology, self-help books and tapes and exercise, all of which really did help me a great deal. I was able to gain some strength in order to go on with my life. I did get caught up in the Florida lifestyle though. My various jobs enabled me to gain some easy cash, so it left as fast as it came, thanks to a lot of shopping and partying. In order to keep up with everyone else, I got credit cards — a lot of credit cards — and found myself sinking deeper and deeper in debt, but not even caring since I was just living for the day. I was also caught up in my looks. It cost a lot of time and money to look good. I became a slave to my looks. I was consumed by it all: hairdresser, manicurist, gym, mall, etc. After all, I was how I looked, or so I thought. And I just knew I would be happy if everyone was looking at me, if I got a lot of attention. And I did get attention, but I hated it. It made me miserable. So what would make me happy? I was still searching.

I found love, and that made me happy for a little while. Then I began looking into religions, all types and kinds of religions. Interestingly enough, I discovered there to be some "universal truths" in many religions. It seemed the rest was different, but the essence was the same. My love for all of humanity and the peace in my heart increased greatly with my spiritual search and growth. I came to be most interested in "metaphysical studies," and some sort of Eastern-type meditation and yoga. I adhered mostly to these. However, I wanted more. I wanted someone to tell me exactly what to do and how to do it. I needed rules and structure. And I just could not get that as this particular field is very liberal, abstract, and free.

Eventually I went back to college, and that made me feel much better about myself. I developed a passion for international relations and after I learned the ugly truth about "American History" and "US Foreign Policy," I was horrified with all the injustice, racism, and oppression. It broke my heart. I was so saddened by the suffering in the world. I decided I must do something about it.

I was just too strong-headed to submit the way one must in order to be a Muslim.

I began networking with and educating local high school and college students about the injustice in the Middle East, and eventually I began organizing local activists to travel to Washington, DC, to protest the upcoming war in Iraq. During this process, I met an amazing man — a Muslim — who was doing this very same kind of work. I had never seen someone who had dedicated his life to the causes I cared so much for — justice and human rights. He had started his own organization, which I volunteered for so that I could learn from him and help in the struggle. As we worked together, he shared with me the stories of Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), the Companions, and the amazing civilization of Islam — the only instance of a just society on this planet. I was shocked to hear these stories, as I knew nothing about this history. I became enchanted with Islam and read all I could about it, eventually reading the Qur'an. I found in Islam the truth I was searching for. Finally it all made sense. However, I realized I had so many misconceptions and stereotypes I was not even aware of. First of all, I was not keen on the women issue and did not yet understand why they dressed so differently. I said resolutely, "I could never dress like that," as I still had the mindset that "how I look is who I am." So if people could not see how I looked, then I would not even exist. Also, what about "the woman stays at home and just takes care of the kids and the household and listens to her husband"? This was too much for me! There was just no way that I could understand why a woman would stay at home. Who is she if she is not "out there" climbing her way to that glass ceiling? And why should she be so obedient to her husband?

I did find the beautiful answers to these questions, which are very logical and amazingly functional. You see, Islam is not just a religion. It is a complete way of life. In it, you have the guidance and the answers to even the smallest of details, like how to eat and sleep. It is amazing!

However, I still was not willing to commit to Islam. It seemed too tough for me; it was too much responsibility and I was just too strong-headed to submit the way one must in order to be a Muslim. Then one cool January night in 2003, I was on the bus ride back from another antiwar rally in Washington, DC, I was at a crossroads in my life. I hated my job and had recently left my husband as we had grown apart. I had had enough of organizing the antiwar people. I was 29 years old and had no idea what I would do with my life. I broke down and started crying. I said to myself, "What can I do? What can I do? I just want to be a good person and make the world a better place. But how? What should I do?" All of a sudden, the answer came to me: Be a Muslim. That's it! A blanket of comforting peace embraced me. I felt so calm and sure and full of joy. All of a sudden I had a purpose in life, a reason to exist.

Life is still life: It's not easy, but now I have a guidebook.

One week later, I said my Shahadah (testimony of faith) at a public groundbreaking for a new mosque. As soon as I said it, two rainbows appeared in the sky! Everyone who witnessed it was very touched and all the Muslim sisters came up to me afterwards hugging me. I was crying from so much joy, as were most of the people there, happy to have me in the Ummah (community of Muslims). The next day, eager to show the world I was a Muslim, I went to a local Middle Eastern store where they sold beautiful hijabs (headscarves) and dresses appropriate for the required Muslim dress. I bought many dresses and scarves, and from that day forward, I dressed properly. Ahhhhh … free at last! I had broken the chains of fashion and physical enslavement enforced by a superficial society. Honestly, I felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I no longer felt the pressure to dress and look better than everyone else. I finally respected myself and no longer based my self-worth on the reactions and attention of others. While many looked at me strangely — some with pity, some with anger, and some with curiosity — I really did get so much respect like never before.

Al-hamdu lillah (all praise be to Allah), the wonderful man who introduced me to Islam married me exactly one month after I became Muslim. Since then we have continued our work together against injustice throughout the world. We have traveled throughout the Middle East and moved from America to Egypt to be with my husband's mother and to live in an "Islamic" environment. Al-hamdu lillah, I am blessed with a beautiful family, in addition to the larger family — the Ummah — I gained when I became a Muslim.

Life is still life: It's not easy, but now I have a guidebook, a structure, a foundation. My heart is complete. The sadness and loneliness are gone. I now feel I belong. I am somebody. And I am home, at least for now, in this millisecond we call dunya (worldly life), until I am in my final, eternal home, in the akhira (afterlife), in sha' Allah (if Allah wills), near to my beloved, the Creator and Lord of the Worlds, Allah, Glorified and Exalted is He.

Sara Bokker is a former actress, model, fitness instructor, and activist. Currently, Sara is director of communications at The March for Justice, a cofounder of The Global Sisters Network, and producer of the infamous Shock & Awe Gallery©. Sara may be reached at srae@marchforjustice.com.

Mommy dearest.....

2009-07-21T21:25:00.000+08:00

Mommy said thanks to me this morning. I responded silently - No Mom, I should be thanking you for giving this opportunity. I sincerely believe Allah s.w.t gave me this opportunity to redeem all the bad deed that I've done and still accumulating ~head hang down~ It's just so hard to be a good person... :(

I bathe my mom for the very first time this morning and twice I put on her adult diapers at night. Never knew I could do this. I always thought my eldest sister would deal with this better. I'm just the other daughter who's only good at other stuffs like, picit ngelat2.. :), bitch about the other siblings...heheheh..yeah that's me...

I can only pray that when I get that fragile, I will have someone to look after me...

RIP King of Pop - MJ

2009-06-26T13:17:00.003+08:00

I received a text at 7.44am this morning - Breaking Michael Jackson died, cardiac arrest. Reported on CNN. OK good night.

Radio 4 was my companion during the good old days where TV sucks like hell. I was introduced to motown music and many others too. When one was listening to Jamal Abdillah or our dear Kak Pah, I was listening to Lionel Ritchie, Four Tops, Jackson Five etc.... and not forgetting the melancholy Casablanca.... laugh my friends..laugh..but these are the people that has influence the bit of dignity I could spare in me which is speaking a decent English by Malaysian standard at least....

As what Madonna to me is Queen of Pop, Michael was THE King of Pop. And I would not say never, but one thing for sure...not in this lifetime there will be another MJ. At least I'm sure I would not live long enough to see it. God don't create such big talent only to be replace in such short notice.

So Michael Jackson my man..... RIP and if indeed you are a muslim, Al-Fatihah, May Allah s.w.t bless your soul and put you in His Jannah....amen....

My sincere condolences to MJ's family and fans all over the world.

p/s: Condolences too, to the family members of Farah Fawcet. RIP angel...

2009-06-08T08:52:00.003+08:00

~Quotation of the day~

One of the luckiest things that can happen to you in life is, I think, to have a happy childhood. Agatha Christie (1890-1976)

I thought I should have this permanently as an entry. Something that made me realized how true these words are. Many of my friends are aware that I was once a nanny with a so called high profile royal family of this side of the world.

I appreciated my childhood life ever since I took that job and realized what "Grass always looks greener on the other side" really meant.

Life was no bed of roses when I was a child but knowing at that time I had a great imperfect mom and dad who treated me like a human and not some robot has made me completely forgiven them for any flaws they did just like they always did for me and they are still doing it.

School holidays = Housekeeping's Nightmare

2009-03-28T15:49:00.002+08:00

As all of you know how preparing for a party is a nightmare, same goes when it comes to school holiday break, it's a nightmare to all housekeepers. Revenue for the hut but hell break loose for us... :(

All because we have some very inconsiderate Malaysian families coming and trying to perk the current bleak economy by travelling local. And spare not, you..yeah..you some Singaporean families who's high mighty kiasu.

But first, I just want to stress here the word is "some". So for those who's not in the "some" level, fret not and for those who's in the "some" level, on behalf of all housekeepers in town, we expect a lil' bit of consideration here. Yes, we..the ones that scrub that swirling wave bowls, make the cribs and many other tasks that are considered as demeaning and degrading job to others.

And the funny thing is, the room rate are cheap as hell but the demand are skyrocketing beyond seventh heaven!!

What fuss can this family do? I'll list down here one by one....

1. I know is "cuti-cuti Malaysia". So you are trying to make this trip as enjoyable as it was before when you had the cash riding high. Slump everyone in one tiny room. Obviously at the check-in counter you only brought you lil' kids and wife leaving behind troopers in the car which is in the car park. You stay 3 days 2 nights and all of a sudden we only see sea of white sheets in the room.... WTF???

Then your kids jump on the divan, it broke. Upon check-in, you have the effort to move the mattresses down but when you check-out you just could not be bothered, right?? What's more the broken divan you claim it was broke even before you took it down. So are you telling me, that all this while your troopers are sleeping in a hole with splints jutting out here and there?? Yeah..I bet you would put your kids in danger.... :(

2. Didn't the rates which you've agreed upon says, breakfast for 2?? Then why the farking hell you have your troopers in the breakfast counter claiming you were not inform on this??? Do we look stupid?? Do we not travel too?? It's universal, that all room rates comes without breakfast and even if they do, it's only for 2 farking people!!! PEOPLE PLEASEEE!!!! And then you make a goddamn big fuss and yes we ended up giving you the free meal and you can't even eat properly..everything else is on the floor except you!!!!

3. Next, you are on a holiday and yeahh..yeah...you follow the tips in TRAVEL GUIDE. Travel light.... And yeah..you stop there. But the SMART TRAVEL GUIDE did not ask you fools to hang you knickers on the lamp shades!!! I got freakin F9 for science but yet know that this may cause fire...It does not take a super genius to know this theory. And there's a reason why we don't allow hanging of anything on the sprinkler, all because the sprinkler it's there to save you when there's fire blazing and not when you are hot, and even if you do, we have this little trap on the wall which blows in cool air, if you must know. So people if you cannot afford the hotel laundry, bring spare clothes.

4. We move on to laundry service. Have you'll ever read the instruction? I'm very sure almost all hotels that have this service it says press # blaa..blaa..for your laundry to be collected. Even butler service rooms the butler has to be call. Is this so difficult? But no, you choose instead to leave the bag in the room and worst, with no laundry list. Then you come back at the end of the day, telling us, it's bloody common sense to send it down to laundry. HELLO PEOPLE!!!! This is the hideous trick in the world, if you can't afford it, then don't use this service. Have you ever heard of self laundry? This is KL people, our surroundings are fill with self-service laundrette. Just make an effort to google where.

And do you know that we serve hundreds of people daily and we are suppose to know and read their mind too right?? Righttttttttttttttttt...................

There's many more things "some" people do. To an extend we feel like we're no human, that we have no feelings....

For now, I'll stop at #4.

25 Random Things about me...

2009-02-04T00:25:00.003+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to “notes” or the "+" sign under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. There's only 2 fruits in this world that I cannot eat or more like I cannot smell, see or even hear people talk about it - Pisang and Durian. And don't ask me why....

2. My most recent phobia is to ride on an express bus. Scared the shit out of me!! I once had too sit on it from JB to KL. I sat and didn't not even sleep, because everytime I close my eyes, I think I'm gonna end up in a ditch. That is if I'm still breathing...sigh...tks to all the stories of express bus accidents at the highway..but only in Malaysia though..weird ehh..

3. I'm a long distance driver, short distance can make me sleep. The driving to and fro office and home, I can either end up sleeping at the road side or at the car park. Also, if I want to sleep in a car, I must sit behind. Being Co-Pilot is just as good as driving a car for me.

4. Working abroad has broaden my horizon in every aspects. One of it, is sitting in car as a rear passenger, way before Malaysia impose the ruling of wearing seatbelts, I have been doing it. Sicko ke aku nie?? or just another phobia...

5. In between form 4 and form 5, I only breeze through my maths paper in the actual SPM. All other times was F9. I'm really that bad at math. Now, why on earth I need to know theorem phytaghoras??? I dunno??

6. Ya Allah...baru no 6??

7. If I tell others in the shape I am now, that I learned ballet till I was 12, besides my school mates, others would just think, I'm in denial!!!

8. I hated learning the Piano because the teacher would snap at my fingers while my brother get an excellent clap and look from her...damn!!! So i quit and stick to ballet n swimming...ok..ok..enough.

.enough...sudah2 lah gelakkan aku...

9. I ran away from home once when I was 10 because I flunk my math...see..tht's how bad I am at math. I took my BMX, cycle until federal highway, saw many cars, turn around cycle back to Komplek PKNS and sat for hours at a book store till my uncle found me there...now, why am I call drama queen??

10. I was more afraid of my late brother than I was at my father....everytime mommy goes...mommy nak call abang....mesti aku gelabah gilos...damn garang yo!! Rest in peace, abang...you are always in my prayers.

11. At 26, at the peak of career but down in love, life was sucks, had 7 credit cards debts..yes people 7 cards...sigh...I left Malaysia and flew west to have my passport written "AMAH" as my occupation which I insisted for them to change to "NANNY" and they did hehehehe...passport nak pakai 5 tahun oooo...ada ke tulis "AMAH" not that I look down on them, but I was not AMAH...ok...

12. When I was a Nanny, I had the privileged to fly on Business and First Class more than I ever dreamed of for free and travel in an entourage of 30, at least. Checked out through VIP lanes..hmm...raser cam bagus jerr...

13. I appreciate my childhood life even more, after seeing how VIP kids are being treated and raise. Don't matter that I have to beg few cents extra from me dad for that extra sweets I wanted, I appreciated that. And many more things that I need to work my ass for to get...I appreciated that.

14. I love my mom..cliche kan?? But there are times I feel I am still single because she thinks that I'm not good enough for any men because of my size. It's always.."intan nie cantik...tapi kan, kalau kurus sikit bagus" So I believed her. Believed that I'm not worthy to any men and stay attached to one until I finally realized that I'm wasting my time with the dude. But as mentioned above at #4, I went out from Malaysia and realized that I'm appreciated much more there and that no one cares whether I'm big or short as long as I'm happy with it. But let me stress here again, that I love my mom, despite what I said, she is the pillar of the family. U go mom!!

15. It's going to be almost 5 years that I'm back in the country, please GOD..I need to be out there again or else I'll go bonkers!! Yes, It's weird, but I felt I appreciated the family, friends and life more while I was abroad working to earn a decent living.

16. I'm grateful that I was there when my brother died. I'm glad I had few months with him before he went away all so sudden. He was the apple of the eye to my mom and I'm the bad apple of the family....

17. Out of working life, when I am upset at someone, I will remain silent until only time will tell. I forgive easily but forget not quite easily. Upset is ok, don't like is ok, annoying is ok, poyo is ok, no one's perfect. But don't make me hate someone because forever I will hate that someone.

18. I hate it when friends who calls or keep in touch with me like once every 10years then out of the blue calls me up because they need something. But since I'm a nice Virgo, I will still help than bitch about it!! yeah...I know...not good...something I'm trying to change. Dah tolong kan?? so senyap2 jer..hilang pahala...

19. I'm very fickle minded about things eg. last year I said to myself that I would like to get the 32" LCD from my bonus, but instead I got myself and Ipod Touch...sigh...fickle..

20. I hate to announce this, but since this 25 random things about me, so heck I should just say it. I have no hope in malay men simply because I'm no Siti Nurhaliza or Erra Fazira because the men I met will not even bat an eye lid to super plus size like me. Malay men in general for me nak yang cantik cantik jer...lepas khawin tak cantik takper...tak pandai masak pun takper..janji maser nak tunjuk depan bakal mak mertua mesti cun melecun...sigh... sound like my mother ehh... -jgn marah ye kaum2 ADAM yg berbangsa melayu-

21. Mak oii...so many skeleton in the closets are jumping out already....

22. I have many friends, but only few close and good friends. Most of my friends are male...hmmm...

23. I'm not sure how to survive in Malaysia without a car of my own.

24. Over the years I have become a homely chick. If no one ask me out to chill2 or lepak2 I will just chill at home on my sofa with my TV and music on. Maybe because I'm a workaholic, therefore every free time I have is at home sleeping or just lazing around. But I do go watch movies alone at times...

25. I know that I can cook because many many moons ago when my sister left for states I used to cook for the family. I was only 15 then. But since I left college till now,I hardly recall a time that I've cook a full meal. So now, I cook only for me because kalau cirit, saya seorang saja yg cirit...heheheh...

Dun worry peeps, ain't gonna tag anyone since I've already tag 25 fb friends to do this.

FT day was actually an effing terrible day

2009-02-03T11:22:00.003+08:00

As soon as I read in the paper that the rebate will only last till March 09, I make it a point to put in my diary to do so.

So with KL was on PH yesterday, dengan semangatnya aku pergi la Post Office in Shah Alam, the biggest one there. As I walked in at 4.35pm the "take a number" counter had a note - Nombor sudah habis. And there are 2 girls sitting there with faces that look like, I promised I'm trying to swear less this year...sigh...... if I was the PO Manager, I would have just give them a lesson or two about being blessed that they have a job nowadays!!!

If you don't know how to fucking smile at a counter where you just sit you ass there most of the time, then just don't bloody work there!!!

And what is this at 4.35pm, nombor habis??? What the fish??? The bloody door is still wide open, and the entrance gate is still wide open...but nombor habis??? Memang effing laaa!!!

Tolong la...government servant, please laaaa.... have some pride with your job. Ok...if any govt servant happen to come across this entry, I don't mean all of you all ok. But most of them yes, and mostly are the ones sitting at the counter. I don't get it, honestly..If you are not freaking happy with the job, then leave and find something else, don't stay and make others life a nightmare.

Smalam memang aku takder mood nak sembur minah tu kat situ, damn lucky she. Is one of those "malas nak layan days" ... I just walked out.

Update for 2009

2009-01-30T08:30:00.005+08:00

Ok...ok..ok... I have this huge problem of procrastinating my work or rather my things to do, for example blogging nieh....

Firstly, since is still January 2009, so I'm wishing all peeps out there, Happy New Year 2009!! Ok..agak basi wish ini kan??

But this is not....Happy Chinese New Year to all Chinese citizens of the world...May the OX year bring joy and happiness to all of us...yes, we all badly need this...

On another note, I'm blessed with the bonus and ang pows I received from my employer for the 2008 effort. Thank you Mr L. Despite your long winded talk that I have to endure daily, you are one compassionate and very considerate boss that I've work with....note - nie bukan mode ampu yaaa...this is real...

I ended last year not with a bang but acceptable within my expectation...let's see apakah achievement aku in 2008 and what I like/dislike about 2008.

- I was promoted...yayy....it's one of the best news...comes with great perks and boleh terima pakai gaji, though I think comparative I should get more. But it's ok, aku nie jenis - takpa, just take it and see where it brings you...

- I moved to my own place. Technically it's still owned by the bank, but heck..I still call it my home. I've manage to put decent props to make it a home and also some stuffs that was left by my sister helps too... :)

- I bought myself a home theatre set. Yeee...saya seorang yg mementingkan audio yg fantastic when watching anything on the screen. But the TV is still the old square box but in good condition. Berangan2 nak LCD which was supposed to be 2009 capex but I diverted to something else... which I will tell later, it's a another different story which shows how fickle minded I can be....

- My work wardrobe increased to a more "canggih" a bit sbb asik kena kutuk je kann...and that means it's burning the pocket....sighh...

- Ouih...HSBC offered me a VISA card which I proudly manage to not screw up like I did 10 years ago...It does come in handy when I needed something online...eeee...kalau mak aku tau..mati aku!!! I made a promise after London that I will not hold any CC. heheheh...but mom, this is given, I just have to sign.... So how can I refuse???

- I was introduced to FB intensively and love it ever since because I met bunch of old friends from way back to my skool days...

- I managed to send my car for service on time. INI ADALAH SATU ACHIEVEMENT OK!!!

- I increased my baju kurung collection for the lazy days at work that needed me to wear stockings....leceh oooo...and remember this entry...damn!!! YES, THIS IS AN ACHIEVEMENT TOO!! I use to have only a pair a year, obviously made just before Raya, how sad is that....

- I thought I reconciled with my eldest sister after our family trip to CH in August....but then it was back to not in talking terms not long after that. But this time, I tried talking to her, but dia jual mahal...suka hati laaaa labu.... I'm sorry sis, for whatever mistakes I did, u have yours too.

- I went to Cameron Highland with my family and Singapore with my friends. Had a fabulous time there, courtesy of none other than my sistah down south.

- I gathered some new friends and few have remain as good friends. I like that...I like...

- Mom have shown tremendous improvement in health with the new doctor treatment. Happy..happy sesangat....

- My youngest sister followed her husband to France for his latest posting which means I'm going there for a visit....yeee...saya amat sukaaa.....

- I'm financially a bit stable....yes...saya amatlah screwed up dalam department ini. Walau berapa pun gaji saya....balance sheet saya tetap topsy turvy, tapi masih ditahap moderate..hahahah

- I was an emcee during the company's annual dinner and I think I did a pretty decent job..maybe I should do this part-time...heheheheheh I'm quite impressed that I've overcome my public speaking phobias.

- And how could I forget, the double winning of Man U....yeahhh...gloat...gloat...I'm still gloating... tak sia2 aku begitu follow football tahun itu...

- Ouh..not forgetting, I went for a medical check-up courtesy of the boss and found out that my spinal bone is thinning...wtf??? aku pun tak paham...but I'm now put on a maximum calcium tablets and also on weight management. Well technically, now I'm generally healthy but 5 years down the road, if I don't start loosing weight now to a more decent looking numbers, I'm on a high risk of getting all sorts of penyakit laaa basically....sigh... so yes I've been going to the gym and lost 1.8kgs as of 26.12.08. We'll see how much I melt in my next appointment .

Basically that's what I feel/see/enjoy/sad about 2008. Really hope I can survive 2009 or at least still have a job... scary yo!!!

Till my next entry...toodle doo...

Ouh...did I mentioned that moi mom said since I'm going to be 34 this year, so by 35 I must be hooked up. Poor mom...year after year she says that.... I'm still amazed at her positiveness...hahahaha....

Happy 66th Birthday Mommy

2008-12-28T02:43:00.006+08:00

From Eve of Merdeka family makan-makan at Muara

I've got to start updating my blog more regularly. Now that I have streamyx at home, I should not have anymore excuses.....

Anyway, I would like to wish Mommy, a happy 66th birthday which happen to be a Christmas day too!!!

Mom, on this day, moi, your daughter who is also your 4th child, would like to see you in more birthdays in years to come. May Allah s.w.t grant you good health and happiness. Do always pray for my happiness and good health too. I may have disappoint you in various aspects of life as it is, but nevertheless I survived the worst because of what you have made me. And for that thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I love you forever n ever and yes from time to time I will still break your heart and I hope that you will find ways in your in your heart to forgive your ferocious daughter acts and words here.

And yes I'm still trying to fullfill your wish of seeing me legally tie a knot with my unknown otherhalf, which I must say it's a quite mission impossible here, considering that I've passed the age of "most likable category age of woman easily get married"....

But I will try...but I'm not promising anything here, so don't count on it ok... :)

Addendum - 29/12/08

To all Muslims - Selamat Menyambut Awal Muharram, semoga masa mendatang akan disinari dan dilimpahi dengan rahmat Allah s.w.t

Note to meself - It's sunnah to puasa nawafil on the 9th and 10th Muharram

Wake up bebeh!!!

2008-12-05T16:30:00.004+08:00

I had a wake up call yesterday. And I hope this time I will take it seriously. Not that I was not reminded of it before. But you know.....

Had a full medical check-up yesterday and result was ok apart from me in category of morbid obesity....uwaaaaa.....

Doc's verbatim "mas u r only 33 and yes your result today shows everything is normal but you don't want 5 years down the road, you will get unnecessary illness BECAUSE OF YOUR WEIGHT!!"

Demmit!!! as much as I want to deny this...I can't.... :( I'm double my age, biologically shown in the statistics. Bloody 66!!! Like?? that's my mom!!!

Then later in the evening, I was on a phone with my childhood friend and also my schoolmate who told me that I can do it if I really wanted too. But that's the thing, me as I am now, I'm happy... so what if I'm fat..fat is fabulous ainnit?? After a looong chat and deep thinking much later, I am going to take this to the next level. I will start to do something for the sake of my health. Who knows I might be happier than my happy status now?

Anyway I'm not going to bother writing what my plans are...coz knowing moi, I will not stick to it as discipline in my personal life is something I'm horrible at.

The important thing is..I'm taking it slowly and easy... No drastic stuffs like tak makan carb langsung ka...or exercise myself to death kaaaa...nooo..noo..nothing like that...

So folks...wait for an update on "morbid obesity" becoming "mild obesity" hahahahaa... look, lets be realistic, I'm not going to be Kate Moss...right???

Bon Voyage, Lil' Sister....

2008-11-26T18:05:00.006+08:00

Finally on Thursday 20th November 2008, my sis and her family flew to their new home for the next 3 years - Paris. How disgusting is that.... hahahaha...this is from "dengki" point of view. Cisss..... sometimes life's unfair. Dammit!!!

But look at the bright side, I can now plan for my Euro tour....hehehehee....

Baby Qist will hopefully come back with a twinge of french accent, if not "english english".

I wish my sister all the best with her new life and I know she will do great. Sometimes being far away makes you a better useful person. No offence aight sis.... not that you were'nt useful before, but you know what I mean :)

So my travel plan for the next 3 years are basically - location confirm, when - bila duit dah cukup...hahahahaa...

There's Paris and Boston ...... Cita-cita mesti ada....

Next year September will be the 5th year I'm back in Malaysia. I think is high time for me to look beyond Malaysia after that. I need to be out there... Not necessarily far away, the neighbouring mate will be ok too... as long as I'm out there...

On the sporting side, MU draw with Villareal and we are on top 16...chances are looking great... too early to tell though, early spring will bring in more exciting matches, I hope...

Single is simple??

2008-11-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

You think being single, it's an easy life??

Nope...nope...not when you are single and have parents and have 3 other siblings hounding your back assuming that because I'm single therefore I should have more time.

Time for what? Forget going out with friends on Sundays for movies or coffees or for that matter anything concerning "friends" is prohibited. To have a chill sunday, sleep in,lazing around all day is not logical in their head, not even considering we're working our ass off on weekdays including saturdays and that we need our rest in peace and solace. Nope...noooo...nooo..noo..

..

Because the singles are expected to go to parents house on weekends because the siblings that have their own families have all the excuses not to be there.

Yeah..so they have to entertain their otherhalf and the broods, therefore we're expected to do so with the parents week in and week out.

And if you are not there, you are deemed "anak derhaka". Well that is in exact word of brother and then come the "kalau mommy mati malam nie, tak redha hidup awak blaaa...bla...bla... mommy kecik hati tau, u did not come today...blaaa...blaa...u better mintak ampun...blaaa...bla....." and the lectures goes on.

Ok...so my mom is not in her best of health for now. But in my justification, it's been countless sundays that I have not enjoy peacefully i.e sleeping all day. I'm exhausted to the max, almost hit the wheel of a gigantic truck because I doze off couple of seconds while driving and as if that's not enough work is not very "easy" too at the moment.

So we had one crazy maid came over the weekend, and so I thought why not? why not this sunday I just sleep the whole day!!! and I did....I just need 1 sunday, just 1 sunday only and then I can keep up with few more sundays before I collapse again.

Why is the terminology of "sleep in" or "sleep all day" sounds very dramatic to some people. So I can do that, what is so wrong with that?? Am I puffing dope all day??? Can I say, I want to have "dope doping all day "?

So I'm one of the few millions that can sleep in, is that soooo bad???

My mom whine to me too, whine about my sister making her heart wrenched, my brother this, my younger sister like that....what did I do??? I didn't provoke her further, just calm the mother down for pete's sake...she's sick, everything is sensitive to her...hmmmm..maybe next time I should provoke her and then call my other siblings and tell them that they're label as "anak derhaka" how does that sound??

So who says being single is easy???

I'm now desperate to find a husband. Any takers???

Ebony & Ivory

2008-11-05T16:33:00.004+08:00

Remember that song?

Ebony and Ivory, fits together in perfect harmony....

What a perfect speech from the 1st colored President of the United States Of America.

It's a new dawn. History is written today.

Change we must and yes we can. Let's hope we'll see changes for the better not only for Americans but also for the citizens of the world.

Let's see no war, no matter for what cause...

~Edit 6.11.08~

Addendum - Obama's winning speech taken from here

Hello, Chicago.

If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible, who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time, who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer.

It's the answer told by lines that stretched around schools and churches in numbers this nation has never seen, by people who waited three hours and four hours, many for the first time in their lives, because they believed that this time must be different, that their voices could be that difference.

It's the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Hispanic, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled. Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been just a collection of individuals or a collection of red states and blue states.

We are, and always will be, the United States of America.

It's the answer that led those who've been told for so long by so many to be cynical and fearful and doubtful about what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope of a better day. Watch Obama's speech in its entirety »

It's been a long time coming, but tonight, because of what we did on this date in this election at this defining moment change has come to America.

A little bit earlier this evening, I received an extraordinarily gracious call from Sen. McCain.

en. McCain fought long and hard in this campaign. And he's fought even longer and harder for the country that he loves. He has endured sacrifices for America that most of us cannot begin to imagine. We are better off for the service rendered by this brave and selfless leader.

I congratulate him; I congratulate Gov. Palin for all that they've achieved. And I look forward to working with them to renew this nation's promise in the months ahead.

I want to thank my partner in this journey, a man who campaigned from his heart, and spoke for the men and women he grew up with on the streets of Scranton and rode with on the train home to Delaware, the vice president-elect of the United States, Joe Biden.

And I would not be standing here tonight without the unyielding support of my best friend for the last 16 years the rock of our family, the love of my life, the nation's next first lady Michelle Obama.

Sasha and Malia I love you both more than you can imagine. And you have earned the new puppy that's coming with us to the new White House.

And while she's no longer with us, I know my grandmother's watching, along with the family that made me who I am. I miss them tonight. I know that my debt to them is beyond measure.

To my sister Maya, my sister Alma, all my other brothers and sisters, thank you so much for all the support that you've given me. I am grateful to them.

And to my campaign manager, David Plouffe, the unsung hero of this campaign, who built the best -- the best political campaign, I think, in the history of the United States of America.

To my chief strategist David Axelrod who's been a partner with me every step of the way.

To the best campaign team ever assembled in the history of politics you made this happen, and I am forever grateful for what you've sacrificed to get it done.

But above all, I will never forget who this victory truly belongs to. It belongs to you. It belongs to you.

I was never the likeliest candidate for this office. We didn't start with much money or many endorsements. Our campaign was not hatched in the halls of Washington. It began in the backyards of Des Moines and the living rooms of Concord and the front porches of Charleston. It was built by working men and women who dug into what little savings they had to give $5 and $10 and $20 to the cause.

It grew strength from the young people who rejected the myth of their generation's apathy who left their homes and their families for jobs that offered little pay and less sleep.

It drew strength from the not-so-young people who braved the bitter cold and scorching heat to knock on doors of perfect strangers, and from the millions of Americans who volunteered and organized and proved that more than two centuries later a government of the people, by the people, and for the people has not perished from the Earth.

This is your victory.

And I know you didn't do this just to win an election. And I know you didn't do it for me.

You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime -- two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century.

Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us.

There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after the children fall asleep and wonder how they'll make the mortgage or pay their doctors' bills or save enough for their child's college education.

There's new energy to harness, new jobs to be created, new schools to build, and threats to meet, alliances to repair.

The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even in one term. But, America, I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there.

I promise you, we as a people will get there.

There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won't agree with every decision or policy I make as president. And we know the government can't solve every problem.

But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree. And, above all, I will ask you to join in the work of remaking this nation, the only way it's been done in America for 221 years -- block by block, brick by brick, calloused hand by calloused hand.

What began 21 months ago in the depths of winter cannot end on this autumn night.

This victory alone is not the change we seek. It is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were.

It can't happen without you, without a new spirit of service, a new spirit of sacrifice.

So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism, of responsibility, where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves but each other.

Let us remember that, if this financial crisis taught us anything, it's that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers.

In this country, we rise or fall as one nation, as one people. Let's resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long.

Let's remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House, a party founded on the values of self-reliance and individual liberty and national unity.

Those are values that we all share. And while the Democratic Party has won a great victory tonight, we do so with a measure of humility and determination to heal the divides that have held back our progress.

As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, we are not enemies but friends. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection.

And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn, I may not have won your vote tonight, but I hear your voices. I need your help. And I will be your president, too.

And to all those watching tonight from beyond our shores, from parliaments and palaces, to those who are huddled around radios in the forgotten corners of the world, our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared, and a new dawn of American leadership is at hand.

To those -- to those who would tear the world down: We will defeat you. To those who seek peace and security: We support you. And to all those who have wondered if America's beacon still burns as bright: Tonight we proved once more that the true strength of our nation comes not from the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth, but from the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity and unyielding hope.

That's the true genius of America: that America can change. Our union can be perfected. What we've already achieved gives us hope for what we can and must achieve tomorrow.

This election had many firsts and many stories that will be told for generations. But one that's on my mind tonight's about a woman who cast her ballot in Atlanta. She's a lot like the millions of others who stood in line to make their voice heard in this election except for one thing: Ann Nixon Cooper is 106 years old.

She was born just a generation past slavery; a time when there were no cars on the road or planes in the sky; when someone like her couldn't vote for two reasons -- because she was a woman and because of the color of her skin.

And tonight, I think about all that she's seen throughout her century in America -- the heartache and the hope; the struggle and the progress; the times we were told that we can't, and the people who pressed on with that American creed: Yes we can.

At a time when women's voices were silenced and their hopes dismissed, she lived to see them stand up and speak out and reach for the ballot. Yes we can.

When there was despair in the dust bowl and depression across the land, she saw a nation conquer fear itself with a New Deal, new jobs, a new sense of common purpose. Yes we can.

When the bombs fell on our harbor and tyranny threatened the world, she was there to witness a generation rise to greatness and a democracy was saved. Yes we can.

She was there for the buses in Montgomery, the hoses in Birmingham, a bridge in Selma, and a preacher from Atlanta who told a people that "We Shall Overcome." Yes we can.

A man touched down on the moon, a wall came down in Berlin, a world was connected by our own science and imagination.

And this year, in this election, she touched her finger to a screen, and cast her vote, because after 106 years in America, through the best of times and the darkest of hours, she knows how America can change.

Yes we can.

America, we have come so far. We have seen so much. But there is so much more to do. So tonight, let us ask ourselves -- if our children should live to see the next century; if my daughters should be so lucky to live as long as Ann Nixon Cooper, what change will they see? What progress will we have made?

This is our chance to answer that call. This is our moment.

This is our time, to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth, that, out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope. And where we are met with cynicism and doubts and those who tell us that we can't, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people: Yes, we can.

Thank you. God bless you. And may God bless the United States of America

Procastinate

2008-11-04T18:57:00.003+08:00

Yeah..if there's anything I can be a champ on...this will be it :(

But..but....but..... last minute is what I do best. Everything just comes out pouring unstoppable... Yeah...and that's why I'm absolute sure that give me a book now for studying I will just toss it away...

So tonight..is just you and me bebeh!!! Keep it coming....and tomorrow will be one great presentation....

So my brainy brain, do not disappoint me....

50 bucks poorer....

2008-10-31T10:50:00.002+08:00

How dumb can someone be???

I got ripped off by 50bucks yesterday, all because of my inability to keep something safe.

argghhh.....

And what makes it even more painfully sakit hati....this morning I saw the god damn thing in the handle holder of my car. I swear I didn't see it there yesterday...or at least I thought so...:(

Damn...the car park ticket!!! yeahh...blame it on them....

Bodohh!!!! Bangang!!!! Bengang!!!!

Reflection

2008-10-29T19:52:00.004+08:00

My Croc got stolen right under my nose. Woke up one morning, open the front door and no crocs!!! I ended up walking to the car with my bathroom slippers....eeeeiiii.....gerammmmm tahap gabannnnnn!!!!!!

The cough I've been having for the past 3 weeks are almost gone and what goes together with it? My voice too :(

We are still without the maid. But mom called up yesterday morning happily telling me that she's able to get up on her own. Yayy..... alhamdullilah... Insya Allah, I'm really hoping this treatment will work on her. Kak Long as usual is forever whining...and whining about how she cannot do sales since the maid ran away. Yup....she really quit her job at the wrong time. I'm trying to understand her pressure i.e if I don't go out and make sales, means less kaching for the month....hmmmm... But we have our pressure too...

Proving the old saying.....Sorang Mak boleh jaga 10 anak, tapi 10 anak belum tentu boleh jaga 1 Mak.... how very true.

I brought dad to his Opto appointment at UH yesterday. His right eye is like almost kaput... Cataract it is. The opt date will be next year. I feel blessed that I'm able to do these little things for my parents. There's only so much I can do. I wish I can drop big bucks to them every end of the month or buy them expensive things or pay for their vacation abroad...how I wish..but these little hands can only offer so much.

Over the long weekend, I attended a funeral of a working collegue of mine. Died of cancer, diagonaise in June and lost the battle on the eve of Diwali. A father of 2 and he's only 38. Sigh...and I'm thinking my life is bad....

Reflection...time of reflection...death always does this to me, especially when it happens to the people I personally know or love. How we take life for granted, how we whine and whine and not a single sense of appreciation given to THE above. We forget HIM when we are happy and things goes well, but when things get screwed up we turn to HIM. And yet HE still listen and sometimes accomodates in ways we least expected. Then we FORGET.

Is HE asking much?? I'm still struggling in trying to complete the 5 must solats a day and when I do, I'm struggling to perfect it. I've once been labelled as someone who has not been given the light of truths just because of one Umrah that I did and I am still where I am as before I did the Umrah. You know the same ol..same...ol theory of not wearing hijab etc...etc.... Is it a total lost?? No one knows and no one should judge. It's between me and HIM.

I've decided to stay in touch with my late brother's children in ways that even if I don't see them, they will still remember me and most importantly my family. It's sad to hear what the youngest daughter replied when I asked her to salam Atuk before she leaves. She innocently asked, which one?? OMG!!!

Forget the adult rivals, forget the fact that her mom caused all this sorrowness, forget my Kak Long who made the situation worst, forget...just forget the bad things and concentrate on how to bring things back together. So that all 5 of them would not grow up thinking that their Abah's family just completely forgotten about them.

I promise Abang....I will do the best I can....

The little sister apologize...

2008-10-17T19:53:00.004+08:00

Remember this.

She send me a message via fb chat box. Hmmm...I'm quite surprised. I guess she's not that condescending after all.

ler.. sorry le.. u take it personally while i'm not serious about it.. it's your life after all...and i'm sorry for some incidents coz both of us are just being angry at each other.. .. whatever happened, it's God's will and a i take it.. my mistake... ok chow

And I replied this....

apologies accepted. my whole life I have accepted negative remarks from people by ignoring it and make the best out of it.but when it comes from your own blood, it kinda hurt right through and through. i would expect a lil' bit of respect from my blood nothing else...as how I've respect you by not saying nasty remark in front of your husband, i expect the same too even if I'm without the otherhalf. anyway i hope you are feeling better from the back pain

Was I being too sensitive, feeling ker, jiwang ker??? I don't think so...

But I'm glad it's resolved. See??? am I not a forgiving person??? but not necessarily forget..hehehehe...

I'm a Virgo, and Virgos are usually a forgiving person and cries a lot. Yeah..I bet you I will cry if I ever watch Armageddon again. I watched it 3 times and I cried 3 times too...Kememeh kan?? And yes, I had watery eyes reading lil' sister message and dropped few tear drops when replying her. Ouhh...I'm a wuss....

Down and stolen...

2008-10-16T20:53:00.002+08:00

I walked to the car this morning in my bedroom slippers. My cute RM139 croc got stolen right under my nose. I walked all along the corridor to see if anyone is stupid enough to leave it outside their door, just in case...

It could be the neighbours, it could be anyone....I'm not angry somehow, not cursing like I will usually do. Is that a sign of me getting old???

Anyway, the maid ditched us last saturday. On the day my mom did thanksgiving gathering and open house. Yeah...on the day where she's needed the most.

And today my Kak Long cried....she actually cried. Ouh..I've forgotten to mentioned that we've started speaking to each other or rather she started. So moi in the spirit of goodwill accepted her effort. But I'm rather concerned that being in talking terms will lead into another of hell episode. I shall cross my fingers and see how things are. In this crucial time, UP there has really chosen the right time for us to start communicating.

I understand the pressure she's facing at the moment. Living in a home where there are 3 ill people. Mom who has athritis, dad with minor alzheimer and the husband who recently had titanium inserted into his back. It's not the cleaning whatsoever but the food preparation and the after cleaning made her cry. And the fact she quit her job to do MLM selling is not helping either. This means, less time spending out there, less income by the end of the day.

I'm trying multiple ways using my networking to get a helper temporary until this is sorted out. But still stuck with dead end. I'm not giving up though, I'll keep on trying.

We'll see how things goes...

My little shallow sister...

2008-10-09T21:51:00.004+08:00

How shallow can someone be when this comes out from the mouth....

"You don't talk so much, get married and solve mommy's problem"

Very shallow!!! effing shallow!!!

Me not married is mommy's problem?? OMG!!! stupidity...real stupidity....

malas nak layan...

this is what happen when I'm at mom's place surrounded by female fatale siblings.

I'm glad I'm back home...alone...

The long deferred family trip

2008-08-29T13:41:00.012+08:00

Right...finally we went. Without my brother , who already went for his 40days missionary annual trip and Ayu's husband who unfortunately have been summoned to work despite his approved leave. The last family trip was in Aug 2005, which after 2 weeks my eldest brother died of sudden death.

Tak pie maner pun.....family trip for us means all the siblings with their otherhalfs and kids, yang single, single la kan...cam aku nie....uhukkk..uhukk... and of course our parents. So usually it's 3 -4 cars. So far it's only local trips. Mak...kan berangan laaa...one day I can fully sponsor the family an abroad trip...alaaaa...pie skiing ker...pie lake como ke kan.... berangan2..jgn tak...maner ler tau, can become reality.

Obviously the single like moi...is the driver for the abah and mommy. I actually like to take this responsibility. Keeps me from the intimate terpaksa conversation with my abah.....either that or my eyes will stay awake as a result of me being in accident couple of years ago....time tu aku co-pilot kan.... gabra sehh...my 1st major accident. Instead of spinning my head kat Modesto kan, malam tu aku spinning kat PJ Police Station. Padan muker aku kannn... Ye laaa..nie kan zaman2 kegemilangan tak sedar siri langsung...nowadays dah ader sikit kesedaran...

Anyways the trip was really fun. I did manage to utter few words with Kak Long, terpaksa la kann..cannot elak already, since I'm the camera woman for the trip and she seriously need her own family picture and also this is Fahin's 1st trip out of Shah Alam. So cam terpaksa la kan...hehehehe... Thw whole jingbeng had a fabulous durian eating session, which I did not join due to my weirdo nausea symptom since birth...dun ask me why or how, because I simply dun have any explanation.

Also I think my picture snapping skills ader skit improving. Perasan skejab...and plus I get to "bullies" all my nieces and nephews, especially Qish since Daddy not around to run at her every beck and call. Muahahahaahah...jahat kan makcik??

More pictures of the trip here.

Also Abah and Mummy tersangat la sedih sbb after our trip they found out the fishes in the pond died due to suffocation. Sad.... :( Only 3 fishes survived and ikan DBKL....aper namer ikan tu aku pung tak tau... Sian Qish daddy....didn't join our trip but when he came to fetch my sis and daughter...kena clear dead fish. Baiknya menantu mummy....

RIP Fishes....

She's finally leaving...

2008-08-23T23:30:00.004+08:00

Just before I went for my short break, someone asked me, "have you heard the latest big news?" I said what?? the increment??

Nooooo.....that's old news..we'll get when we get it.

If I tell you, you've got to promise that you'll act shocked when you hear it from her, anyway half the hotel knows about it already. So I said, great, I'm directly supposedly reporting to her and I'm the last to know...hmmm...

You've guessed it...my division leader is leaving for bigger bucks with a lower post. Who cares anyway right?? Now, it's all about the dollars and cents. After 17 years she's finally making a move. I'm wishing her all the best and that she will succeed in bringing her new team to greater heights.

I now recall when I last saw her from her East Coast trip she dropped by the office, came in, use the loo and then said see you guys tomorrow but not before she went over to touch the shoulder and pat the back of my assistant, whom like her has been there for 17 years. I thought something was "going on".

I wonder when my time is coming.... dollars and cents wise...I am getting waaaayyyy below the KL market. Anyways, I know I will make a move, when? is matter of timing. I'm only hoping I won't be here for the next 17 years, I cannot imagine myself being under one management style for that long. I am what I am because of the several management skills that I adopt through out the years.

Let the games begin....

2008-08-16T15:15:00.005+08:00

Let the games begin.... What's your prediction? Will the Red still rule? Or will it be the Blues? Can Gunners make it? or perhaps the Scousers....

Too early to tell... but I have faith on the Devil :) yes I'm biased.... hehehehee...

May the best team win...

And tomorrow will decide whether Malaysian has what it takes to achieve that dream we've long for.

Lee boy...we're counting on you to make Malaysia proud. God speed!!

No regrets

2008-08-14T20:03:00.004+08:00

To Lion King land, dance the 70's, do some networking, all expenses paid for...

or

Drive up the tea hill, pay the gas, pay the toll, free stay, pretend it's autumn and chill...

I decide to pick the latter....

Why???

Because it's a maszuzu's bunch vacation.

cliche??? that I pick family over potential to score better job deal.

No...I always follow my hunch..and this time it says, go with the bunch and so I will.

People say family comes first, but how many of us actually live by that rule?? As for moi, always follow my hunch...sometimes family, sometimes not...sometimes a selfish decision..but at the end of the day, no regrets.

Going, gone and staying

2008-08-11T18:44:00.005+08:00

I am going to miss that lil' girl. She will be 4 when she returns, that is if she return. Most likely her whole life she will be living in different parts of the world. Have I mention that my younger sis will be following her husband to Paris for his new posting. I'm thrill at the fact that I have a crash place for my europe trip. heheheheee.... Used to call her grumpy, I think she look like Grumpy of the 7 dwarfs. Don't u think so??

Wan is already feeling the "missing emo". Always saying...takder la Qish datang jumper wan every weekend....uhuuuukuhuuuk...

Fahin, is the latest addition in the family. He's my Kak long's son. He is such a funny boy. None at all grumpy like her cousin Qish. He is not like his mom at all. I hope he's not. I always said...you don't be grumpy like your mommy ok.... So far he's so the opposite of his mom. Never grumpy except when his hungry or sleepy. One fine boy there. This is Wan's apple of the eye. At least he's around when Qish is far away access able via skype.

My brother lost her baby girl about a month ago. She was born without skull. SIL was induced 3 times through out her pregnancy because doc said baby has no chance of survival. But survived she did for almost 3 days. That was the first time I shed broken tears for a newborn. But what upset me most was when the doctor did not make any attempt to even feed the baby. Baby was fed only after about 14hours and that also because I insisted. Can you imagine a newborn baby not fed for that length of time? I'm assuming the reason was she's gonna die anyway. Grrrr... Mati atau tak, it's not in our hand, how inhuman it was to deprived a baby from her mother's milk.

When I asked the nurse, baby tak minum susu? Her answer, dah tapi tak nak hisap. And that's all? No more trying, no other options? Cannot insert tube ker, or use a syringe ker?? I really don't understand. She is healthy, she was breathing on her own till the end. The hospital did not even cover the opening with any bandage whatsoever, leave it open until we ask them too. Seriously...I don't understand.

I believe in this modern western medicine there is chances of survival and ways to make it better. Tapi we redha that she's gone, so was her Ibu and Ayah.

RIP Syuhada...wait for Ibu and Ayah in Jannah..insya allah...

I'm awaken by this. I now appreciate life more and try to make the best out of everything. Last week, mommy's health improved. She was given a steroid jab which she last received 2 years ago. I'm happy to see that glow. I know this is a cliche, but I cannot imagine if mom goes now, what will become of me?

Counting my blessings

2008-08-06T19:04:00.004+08:00

I'm eagerly waiting for the 15th when the Big Boss will announce the increment. I'm not suppose to get any since my salary was adjusted earlier this year due to my promotion. Did I mention that I was promoted somewhere last March. Yup....came to me by a surprise too... I did not expect to get it that soon, thought, eeerrmmm... maybe another year.

I was offered an "acting" which I rejected because working with peeps that have been attached to the same place between 15-17 years ain't easy. Do you think they will even bat an eye lid to me if I want something?? Forget it.... So I figured rather than being fooled around I might as well stay where I am till they figure I'm worth it. Glad they didn't take that long to think.

So promotion comes with perks..tersangat la aku sukerrr. Besides getting gas claim, I have another official handphone number, free designated car park....huhuuuuuuu...best...no matter how late I come there's no need to berebut2 and I can eat great food for free and also entertain. Alhamdullilah..me so glad. Quite a good year 2008, promoted, moved to own place, double increment, confirmed 1 month bonus pre-raya, what more could I ask for.

But in my suker-suker mode, few months ago my apartment kena break -in. Damn those peeps. If staying in a place which need card access to get into the corridor and still kena break-in, just pisses me off!!! Daylight robbery, confem druggies, coz they didn't even touch my home-theatre, just the small stuffs. When the maintenance guy called me up...my mind was flashing my brand new home theatre...adusss... praise the lord, tak kena kebas and my lap top was with me at work.

Aaaa...well... I feel bless... family is good, I'm doing ok...though I'm still not talking to Kak Long...aaa..what the heck..time will heal it.

In exactly 24days I will be 33.... and that means ramadhan is next day and raya in 30days and baju kurung tak tempah lagi....aarrghhh... better get to my tailor this weekend or I will be wearing the only 2 baju kurung I have since last year. Yeah....it's that sad.

Heart of Gold

2008-07-30T16:47:00.003+08:00

The company I work with has the good and bad points.

Today I received an e-mail from HR -

Hi all,

Please be advised that the management increment has been deferred to next month.

Please explain to your staff should there be any queries.

Dangg!!!!

My rank & files are smiling ear to ear, they have received their increment. And since this year comes together with the salary scale adjustment, so technically everyone are getting double increment!!!

But whatever it is, 1 month bonus before Hari Raya is soooooo confirm....yeeeehaaaaa...

Not bad ehhh..considering most employers are cutting down, I would have thought it's all being freeze.

When you have a BOSS with a heart of gold, u can never ask for more. Yes he's pretty annoying sometimes but he cares...that matters.

Of love and life

2008-07-28T18:36:00.005+08:00

Last Saturday, my friends and I went to watch SATC the movie at Signature - The Gardens. Paid 40bucks to be in an unorganized pre-movie cocktail party and the walking to so call "PREMIER" movie screen right from the entrance of Signature stinks badly. Whoever's doing the housekeeping of that place, sure hell ain't doing a good job.

The parking at Gardens sucks to the max!!! Anyone who've been to U.Hospital will know what I'm talking about. The design was wrong and at the age where you pre-pay before existing obviously not known to them because it took me about 25minutes @ almost 11pm just to reach the bloody ticket booth. And it cost me 7bucks. Damn!!! Whoever did the consulting of the hotel cum shopping mall, did a focking lousy job!!

The only reason I went was to catch up on things with my girlfriends. The movie was entertaining and have that teary moments..yeah..I'm that hopeless when it comes to this... Off course the clothes and shoes are to die for. I can only adore them, but i don't think in this life time I would wear it. Too much....But I don't mind the shoes though...

Four of us had coffee after the movie. One thing lead to another, each of us ended up telling a piece of that little sad love story.

W - Married with 2 kids, happy with the husband but not in love with him. Currently having long distance affair with an old friend who resides abroad and was told he had only about 10years left of his life due to some illness.

S - Married with 2 kids, not happy with the husband, can only think of him as a brother. Currently have an affair with a man whom she met a year ago. Don't have much kaaching to impress her but have a very caring and loving character. Her partner of 18years on and off affair who was her 1st love ended up a year ago. It finally really ended when he died of cancer sometime few weeks back.

D - In a long relationship, say almost 13years. Not married but live together whenever he is not sailing. He works on ship for 6 - 10month before returning to dry land for a 3 months break. I personally know her beau from my college years. Expected to tie the knot next year. It was suppose to be on 31/8/08 but re-schedule to 2009 - unknown date.

Moi - Not in a relationship. Have a stable career, live alone "not in rented" home, drive a "not rented" Malaysian car and have freedom to do absolutely anything without having to think about another mouth to feed should anything goes wrong. And if I'm still not in one by the time I'm 38, I'll adopt a kid. To accompany me as I enter my much anticipated golden years.

There you see, 4 gals with 4 different issues.

Life ain't never bed of roses. The grass always looks greener on the other side, my mama said... So always count your blessings and make the best out of everything.

Though sometimes I envy couples I see holding hands, couples bless with wonderful broods, individuals who have otherhalfs that practically will do anything in their willpower to make her/him happy, individuals who can just swipe em' cards at anytime he/she feels like it..yaaadaaa..yaaadaaaa...yaadaaa..u know what I mean aight?? Moi will just tell the devil in me, to erase that evil thots...ain't gonna bring me nowhere. Just be happy for others and eventually I will too, someday.

Most importantly - go back to basics. HE will always be there to guide us. Insya Allah....

Home Sweet Home

2008-07-25T20:27:00.001+08:00

Today I decided that I should blog again. To bring back my sanity.

While I have defunct updating I do still silently become a reader. There's so much thing to blog about since December 07, but somehow I just stopped. Can't figure out why.

I've moved from my mom's house. I moved into my own apartment, technically the bank still owns it but heck..I'll still call it my own home. Home that I bought with my own sweat, blood and tears...yeahhh..yeahhhh....drama queen I am.

Spinning back 9 years ago, I would forever be in my mom's debt for forcing me to invest on a property. At 24, I swiped RM1k as refundable booking fees and got a 100% Islamic loan. Phewww...thank god for that, or else I would now have to fork out more due to the recent hike of fuel prices. Yes, I may have almost flunk accounting but I do know a lil' thing or two about getting the best loans.

And now I will also be forever be in my Kak Long's debt for furnishing the house so nicely that I barely need to fork out a bomb just to move in.

So Kak Long just so u know, eventhough we're not in talking terms till god knows when..I do appreciate it and thank you so much. But I still don't deserve your "I'm always right" treatment. Maybe one day I'll blog about it.

Feels good to be able to walk semi nude....yeeeehaaaa..... yes...I'm that conventional, total nudity of moi makes me feel insecure.

And NO.....not because of my excess baggage...but only because the thot of being found dead naked...errrrr....gross???

Labour Day

2008-05-02T13:04:00.001+08:00

Labour day paling screwed up skali!!!

I keep telling myself in this situation, that everything happen for a reason....arrggghhh... no one to be angry at but with myself...yeah..keep telling myself that.

WHATEVER HAPPEN???

Lesson learned.... jgn sekali2 pegi clubbing dengan drinker who thinks that he/she can take it but actually can't. And betapa bangang tahap gaban lah aku..like I didn't expect it, I put my car key in her handbag. Then she ditch us, make her way home, and here we are risau cam nak mampus...kot kot mak orang nie dah kena rogol ke aper ker... and best of all went home with my car key!!!

Masih tak bangang??? Wait...

So 8 of us decided to split, 4 of them would take a cab to lrg perak for early breakfast and 4 of us would take my friend's car (car belongs to one of our friend who didn't ditch us, but honestly told us that she's not sober to drive - so she will meet us at lrg perak - fair enough)

We waited at this hotel entrance for the car and when the car didn't arrive, we had to aske brudder jockey tu, to which he replied what's the car no. And none of us ingat, plus the car owner which went to lrg perak hanphone was dead and so are others. Sucks kan??? Brother jockey tak boleh la nak tolong, nak tolong amendernyer??? no keta pun tak hengat...

So we decided to take a cab to pandan to that "ditcher" who ditch with my car keys....notice my angry tone??? marah giler babi tak bleh nak contain sehhh...

To cut the story short, got a cab, went to ditcher's house, got my key, ditcher's apologize, fine..we're ok... sampai lrg perak, got down from the cab and taraaaa!!!!

Guess what???

After about 20minutes enjoying our nasi putih, sup ekor and telur dadar....calmly I said..dude maner kunci keta aku aaa???

Great...I left it in the cab....At this point I just could not be bothered...I need to fill my brain and tummy....

So malas nak citer panjang... I ended up at home at about 8am in the morning on LABOUR DAY.. got up at 2pm and take another bloody cab to KL to pick up my car...

All because of my stupidity...nak marah org mabuk??? boleh ke???

Whatever happen to that car that we waited for??

The blurr chinese dude who was tagging along another friend of us was so damn bloody blur and bangang.....left us at the bloody posh entrance...all 3 of us....memang lah bangang tahap gaban...

Good Day...

2008-04-30T15:20:00.002+08:00

Moi...that's about what I know of french word apart from merci beaucoup and jetaime... So, me don't speak french ok... Me would like to learn one day...

It's a good day today...what's not to be good when MAN U is heading for Moscow on the 21st to fight another fellow English team for the Championship League Cup....whooaaaa.....can't wait...

Nevertheless, this is just a change of link and design, otherwise I'm still UBA to most bloggers...